May 18, 2009

  • I haven't had fast food since April 16th. No Taco Bell, no Subway, NOTHING for more than a month! My bootcamp required a contract that I wouldn't eat fast food for the entire month. Bootcamp ends on Friday.

    I'm aching for a Bean Burrito, mentally.

    I haven't had a soda - Diet or Regular - since last Friday. Today is day 3.

    I'm doing better today than I was yesterday - I'm still caffeinating with teas but I'm aiming to be off of caffeine by the end of July.

    We (Joshua and I) go out about once a week for dinner - normally Mediteranean food but once in awhile something different - pizza on occasion and two weeks ago we had some awesome Indian food. This week will be a bit different as Saturday is the typical day we go out and I have a dinner date with some friends on Thursday. We're going to Pizza Fusion - all organic pizza ingredients and whatnot. I probably will skip going out on Saturday because I am going out on Thursday.

    Why am I saying all this?
    I'm whining, that's why.

    Because what I really, really, really want is a Taco Bell run with a giant soda and a trip to Dairy Queen for a Blizzard and possibly follow that up with a burger from some cheap ass grease joint....

    And, I want to tell myself it's because I'm having a bad day - which, indeed, I AM! - but I realize that I would be lying. It has nothing to do with my mood or my day. It's just because I want it and I won't let myself have it.

    Now, after bootcamp ends, I will likely have a Taco Bell treat - and hopefully will keep it at once a month instead of once a week. I don't want to deny myself EVERYTHING. But I have come to realize that even though I eat well for MOST of my meals, the meals that I don't eat well for I eat like a bleeding cow with a tape worm....

    Progress, I suppose.

Comments (1)

  • You've made some serious progress! My god! Those are some huge goals.

    Well, since I went off "sugar" for Lent, and then only a little bit now and then, I had a piece of cake for James' birthday, and now I have the "craving" again, dammit. See, if I don't HAVE sugar, I honestly don't miss it much. But once I start with some cake and a cookie here and there, I'm toast!

    I want to get to the point where, after weeks of being "good", I reward myself with something "bad". I mean, bad food is NOT a reward!!! But it's still stuck in my head that I DESERVE cake, man.

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