February 25, 2004
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I'm itchy...
not in the dry skin sort of way. But in a...itchy inside my head, inside my belly, under myself kind of way.
I don't know what is causing it...but I just want to slough my skin, my life, my everything and start all over naked and new and pink. I know that I can't...I have job...responsibilities...kitties...family...friends...loves...hates...
Perhaps it's my increasing age...
yes, I know, 24! Doesn't sound old, until I realize that's only 6 years from being 30...which, to those of you who are older than 30, probably is an insult - but you remember being 24!? I suddenly feel OLD...grown up and full of grown up thingies with no room for fun or play...
and I don't WANT to be a stodgy old scientist cat lady...perhaps that what I am so aching to get rid of is that very feeling? or perhaps I'm just feeling the need for spring, to run, to be away, outside and feel free - if even for a few moments...
Who knows?
But I'm itching for something.
Comments (5)
yeah, wait until 25. hell wait until fucking 27, which is what mine is this year. i'm in denial. according to the plan i came up with as a kid, i'm supposed to start having babies at 27. ack!
I've felt old since about oh, 13? I think some of us are just born old. And as for you itching for something, well it's early so just assume I said something suggestive there.
You know, I've been feeling the same way lately - I was even going to write about that today. I'm approaching 29 - wonder if that has anything to do with it? I dunno ... but lately, I can't stand to be in my own skin, can't sit still, and am far too emotional. Criminy. It's as if my hormones are operating at full speed all the fucking time. Jeepers.
I'm thirty five.
You made me cry, damn you.
::joking::
Feith
Hang on for the ride because once you turn 30 the years just start flying by. It seems as though only yesterday I was 18.
If I only knew then, what I know now.... (it's a cliche but very, very true!)
Isa, 36 and counting......
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