February 21, 2003
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i seem to be cranky and crabby and all kind of other mean c words a lot lately
i'd like to blame it on PMS, menstruation, an incipient infection, stress, the weather, faulty landlords...
but i don't think that's what it really is
what is it? i don't really know
i'm not good at being happy. never was. don't remember a time in my childhood of actually being happy...not unhappy...just no happy. maybe people shouldn't be happy? who knows...we humans...I just don't understand us...
we invent boredom, loneliness, dissatisfaction...we constrain ourselves with religion, education, ignorance, houses, heat...do we ever really liberate the us that's inside?
sometimes, i wish just for a moment, a day, a week, to return to a time when it wasn't so damn complicated - not childhood or anything like that... maybe what i mean is, a past? where there were places where it really got dark at night, places where you couldn't hear cars at night, places where we didn't break the earth up into itty bitty neat organized rows to make it do what we wanted...
so what the hell am I saying?
again, I have no idea.
however, this time I do think i have something to blame...digestion...
this is what comes from eating chocolate chip cookies, cheese chunks and milk for dinner
Comments (9)
Chin up, Pooh Bear! The alternative, not feeling at all, is infinitely worse. Try and have some fun today (but be careful about mixing too much dairy with chocolate
). Happy Birthday!!
Yeah, eating stuff you know you shouldn't doesn't help, but you might be able to blame it on your birthday. It makes me cranky when mine rolls around. Not because I'm older, but because I feel awkward about it. I think it's kinda like Christmas in that, as an adult, it never quite lives up to it's promise.
Happy birthday though! (boy, that was backhanded, I know. I'll shut up now...) You really are enjoyable to read.
RaeW.
Happy bday!!!
Now go get laid.
Sex makes everything better...for a while, at least. And chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream. But on second thought...I think you've had enough sweets for a while so just go out and get some play. =o)
that is EXACTLY how i felt last night, only it was induced by the worst headache ever...blech...i just wanted to make everything go away and go back to living in caves and hearing nothing but crickets and frogs at night. but now today i'm better. =O)
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!! (i mean it's your birthday for god's sake...go out and get sloshed, it'll make you feel loads better...=O))
I would incorperate the sweets and the sex. It is your birthday! Take the day to live hedonistically! Happy Birthday!
happy bday. don't want to be too happy and upset your equilibirum.
ps. I used to spend time "out in the woods" about one weekend a month and it cured me pretty quickly of wanting to actually go back to a less technologically advanced time. which I feel guilty about, but hey.
happy bday. don't want to be too happy and upset your equilibirum.
that second happy bday was an evil xanga maneuver (sp?)
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